12 posts tagged “life”

And I like all females reserve the right to change my mind.  And I have.  I have gone back 
to word press.  Yes, I know how I bitched, but there it is.  They released a new version and 
it seems better.  So Eclecticizm
is now up and running again.  And as you can tell from this post and the last, VOX's
interface has gone wonky.  

Life is interesting.  I have been taking anti-anxiety drugs for about 2 years or so.  The last time I ran out I forgot to get them refilled (let's hear it for the ADD/dyslexia addled mind!).  And a funny thing happened.  Suddenly, I was thinking more clearly.  
Suddenly I was feeling more creative.  Suddenly I was afraid to take these drugs that I thought were getting me through
the day because I felt better without them.  What do you do about that?  I am not one of these people who think it is 
a sign of weakness to take advantage of better living though chemistry.  I am one of those people who thinks that if you 
have to take 12 pills to make the day look brighter, then by all means do it!!  Life is too short to live miserably.  I am 
also one of those people who will thump you on the head if you stop taking your meds because you just don't want to 
anymore.

Am I one of those people now?

I just turned 40, maybe my body chemistry is finally going to normalize.  It would't surprise me.  My chemistry has always 
seemed to have a mind of it's own.  Never reads the text books, dosen't care what it SHOULD be doing.  Bit cheeky it is.

So there you have it.  I am the person who wanted to have "Better Living Through Chemistry" tattooed on her arm, and 
now I am finding that sometimes it is all about moderation.  

Did I say that? 

I spell it out like that so it doesn't really look like the age that shall not be named.  I know I shouldn't be bothered.  It is nothing but a number.  I don't look the age that shall not be named.  I don't think I act that old either.  Although I am not exactly sure how you are supposed to act.  But I have it seems fallen in to a small pit of despair over it.  You know, here I am the age that shall not be named and what have I done?  And I know that where I am in life doesn't have anything to do with age.  I know that.  But it seems that bothers me anyway.  And I know I am going to be 41 and I can be right where I am or I can be where I want to be.  Of course that extends the thought that I know where I want to be.  I sort of do.  It is some nebulous place where I am doing something creative and I am happy and fulfilled.  Of course there again that leads you to believe that I know what it feels like to be fulfilled.  I am not sure I do.

Anyway

I turn the age that shall not be named on Saturday.

Happy birthday to me. 

What work of art (film, book, record, whatever) changed your life?
Submitted by bodhibound.

That would have to be "Up to the Roof" by Blue Man Group.  It really describes how I feel about myself.  How I think the best part of me sees the world.  I often wish I had the courage to really take the fire escape up to the roof.  I have to a certain extent realized that my goals in life are not necessarily what other peoples are.  My inner landscape is really more important to me that the landscape most everyone sees.  Not to say I am a total new ager.  I can be as shallow as the next person. I am a creative being. Feeling creatively fulfilled really matters to me.

Where is the farthest you have ever been away from home? Did you get homesick? 
Submitted by Melissa.

We went to Alaska on our first cruise.  It was magical, I recommend everyone see Alaska at least once.  I didn't get homesick, but I did miss my kitties. 

These are the top 106 books most often marked as "unread" by LibraryThing's users (as of 10/2/07). As usual, bold what you have read, italicize those you started but couldn't finish, and strike through what you couldn't stand. Add an asterisk to those you've read more than once. Underline those on your to-read list.

I have lost my left arm.  I know that wouldn't make much difference to most people, but seeing as I am left handed, it could be a problem. Okay, now before you get all excited, I guess I should say that I feel like I lost my left arm.  I lost my cell phone yesterday.  It was a V3xx razor in gold.  I loved that phone.  I don't think I had had it a month.  I am ALWAYS losing things.  Sometimes I feel like I have a poltergeist following me around and hiding things from me.  Bleh.  Just Bleh.

If you are wondering why I have suddenly switched blog providers (is that what I did?), I have found that I utterly hate the posting interface on wordpress.  I posted the Halloween rules list on wordpress and it took me over an hour.  I tried to cut and paste it.  The spacing was all wonky.  So I retyped it and when I posted it, it looked like the huge paragraph.  The interface didn't register ONE of the breaks between the numbers.  So I went in and coded them by hand.  Okay, great.  All fixed.  Oops!  Mispelled word.  Fine, go back in and edit the post.  Fix the misspelling and save and post.  Guess what, it again looks like one big paragraph.  Go back, recode the brakes by hand.  Save.  Dear god, I can't spell to save my life.  Again, go in fix spelling.  Save and post.  Guess what?  You guessed it, one big paragraph.  This leads to screaming, yelling, and the dog looking at me like I am crazy.  Hence, the new blog.  I like it actually.  I can put my favorite book, music, movies/TV on it.  I also really like the Day of the Dead motif I have going  on.  I love Day of the Dead art, so there you go.

Over a million iPhones have been sold.  Have you: bought one, considered it, or decided it's not for you?

There are things I would do for an iphone that are illegal in almost every state.  I have played with one in an Apple store and if I wasn't in love with it before, I am now.  Of course I am an Apple Borg.  I think everyone should be assimilated.  The world would be a shiny happy place.  Steve Jobs could be king.  It would be brilliant!